As a continuation of my previous post...
So here I am, just over two months in and 25 lbs down. No more excuses. I told myself that when I lost 25 lbs I would add working out to my diet and break the plateau that has plagued me for 7 years. When I got pregnant with my first daughter, who is about to turn 6, I had been dieting and working out hard, and FINALLY made it down to 195 lbs - barely. My fat gets stubborn around 215, and the month I spent under 200 was the only month in over a decade. Problem is? I haven't seen under 200 since then.
You have absolutely no idea how badly I want this for myself, and I am willing to put in the work to do it. A while back - quite a while actually - I bought the INSANITY 63 day program. But I have always been too scared to try it, so it sat unopened at the back of a drawer, waiting for me to find the courage to face it. It is going to be torture, and it will hurt, and it will push me harder than I have ever been pushed in my entire life. But you know what? THAT'S OK! Because I am strong, and powerful, and I have been through far worse things in my life than a workout DVD that wants to kill me. And even better? You can survive anything, no matter how bad, if you know there is a finite end to your suffering. Beachbody's Insanity program is 63 days. I can do 63 days right??
But here I am, the morning where I finally faced the scale and to my surprise saw that I had lost 25 lbs. It was time to start working out. But do I want to do Insanity? Or something... more my pathetic overweight, out of shape pace. Then I looked at the calendar. I'm going back to Canada to see Darling. In 63 days.
Fate has spoken!
And so I begin... Insanity; Day 1.
Its just a fitness test today. How hard can that possibly be? HAHA!
I will say now, in hindsight, that I don't think I gave it 100% effort. 80% maybe. 100%? No. I do have to modify some exercises while I am still so overweight, like the power jumps, until I can get the surrounding muscles of my foot strong enough to support it without damaging it more, but I definitely think I took it easy on myself a little bit.
And by EASY, I mean I had muscles shaking that I didn't even know existed, let alone that I actually had. I was not dripping sweat, it was POURING, and I felt like there was not enough oxygen in the world to get me through it. And this is just the TEST? Little scared lol.
But I made it. I finished the test. Pretty sure I failed it, but I finished it! And the way the program is set up, I will repeat this test every two weeks until its over so that I can track my fitness progress. And next time? 110%. When I repeat it in 2 weeks I will post my 'before and after' results so you can track along with me.
But here are my "BEFORE" pictures! Awful right? Overall, I think I'm pretty. I have a great face and (if I do say so myself) gorgeous eyes and hair, and importantly, I know how to dress for my body size and shape, but when it comes right down to it, I want to look great naked!!! And this? Not pretty naked. Enough rolls to make Sara Lee jealous.
But this is me. And soon it will be the Me I Used to Be.
Starting weight 2/4/2014: 212.8 lbs / 5'6"
Starting BMI: 34.4
Size: 16
Goal: 150 lbs
Goal BMI: 24.4
Size: 8
Tomorrow is another day, a new (actual) intense work out, and one day closer to finding myself along the way...
<3
~Me
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